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1511354_10203438330831015_5899297131824040142_nIt is pointless for me to worry and stress over a situation that I cannot change. Still, the very existence of that situation and the effect it leaves on my daily life causes me to feel the stress. So, what do I do when I’m going through a difficult time? The answer. Go through it. Yes, going through something means that there is a point in time where I will walk out of that problem and hopefully come out stronger and wiser than I was when the problem first darkened my door.
You see, the last two months I have been walking around with a nauseous stomach and pretty much feeling very ill. I’ve pasted on a smile for my family and my co-workers and when they’d ask me how I was doing, I’d respond with a bubbly, “I’m blessed! How are you?” The question was, did I really believe that I was blessed? Apparently not. My faith and trust was under fire and I was allowing emotions of fear, depression, low self worth and even an evil foreboding of doom to enter my thoughts and manifest in my daily life. Examples: I’d get up out of bed three or four times throughout the night to check the lock on my front door. I’d freak out over any twinge of pain and immediately think the worst possible scenario, like having some incurable disease… and the list goes on.
One Sunday morning when I was visiting my parents, my father said to me, “I believe that the reason you haven’t been feeling well these last couple months is because you’re anxious. You need to learn that if you can’t change it, then you need to trust God to get you through it and just be peaceful.” Wow! I just sat there and looked at my wise, 79 year young dad and was amazed how profound his words were and how deeply they penetrated my spirit. He was so right. His words were simple; not at all mind blowing, but in my case, they were life changing.
The constant nausea, the worries of having ulcers and other physical ailments, the fear, depression, evil forebodings; they all stemmed from the fact that I took my eyes off of God’s hand and instead put my eyes on my situation. Yes, I’ve been going through some tough times in my life, a lot of it worrying about the people I love, but that Sunday morning, sitting in my parent’s living room, I needed to be reminded of whose hand I was holding while going through these hard times…Jesus!
It’s been about two weeks since those encouraging words from my dad and today we are in a new year…2015. I have since learned to sincerely cast my cares on the Lord and rest in His Promise to never leave me or forsake me. Yes, it would be easy for Him to remove the problems I’m going through. But how will I grow into a stronger more courages woman? How will I realize and even call upon inner strengths, gifts and talents deep within me if I never go through something? The most important question to me is, “How will I ever realize how much I need Him and how much He truly loves me if I never ever need to hold onto His hand?
There will always be problems my friends. I shared my story here and how I needed to be reminded of my faith in Jesus. I don’t know what you’re going through right now or if you have a belief in God. I do believe that we all need to believe in a power greater than ourselves, just to even have hope. I mean, could you imagine the hopeless feeling of thinking that we are our only savior? So, as I close this article, I pray that it will encourage and truly bless every reader. Whatever the burden, I believe in someone who can carry the weight of that burden and I pray that you consider taking hold of His hand. Please don’t allow your problems to continue to make you ill! Stress is said to be a silent killer. I wasn’t aware of the stress that I was under until I was forced to look at the physical toll it was taking on my body. If you can’t change something (and please know that you CANNOT change another person), give it to God and find some peace and some joy in your life. My joy these days has been sitting at my easel and painting. What are your hobbies? Find an escape that’s healthy and beneficial to YOU. The subtitle of my N.M.V. blog page says, “There’s only one YOU.” and that statement is so, so true! You matter. You’re a Designer’s original. Always find ways to be good to yourself spiritually, emotionally, and physically. It’s not being selfish. Selfish would be just giving up and falling into habits that could destroy you and even the people around you who do love you. It is about rising above life’s circumstances and living a victorious life that you were created to live! So, choose wisely who and what you allow into your life. You will make it through!
Sincerely,
Yoli Fae (N.M.V.)

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New MeditatingThis has been a rough year! I had major surgery in May, my sister moved in with me in June, and recently my dad got really sick and ended up in the E.R. with what we were told was a stroke. Turns out it wasn’t a stroke but some bizarre infection.
As the oldest daughter (middle child), I have always been the ‘Fixer.’ Some might even refer to me as a co-dependent. Regardless of the label, somewhere along the line I lost ME. My hopes and dreams seem to mean very little to me lately. Not that I don’t still want them! It’s just that they seem so far away; almost unreachable.
I love my family but I have to come to the realization that I can’t be their savior. I can’t ref every argument, protect everyone’s feelings, and keep the people I love from being hurt. I can however have a say in guarding my own heart. It’s not selfish to think of me. If anything, it’s crucial to the survival of a fading reflection I see every time I look in the mirror.
So, how do I rekindle the fire within me and start chasing after my dreams again? I truly believe that I have to trust in one greater than all of us…yes God…and put those I love in His hands through prayer. I thank God that my dad is healed and I will always be there to help my parents. Still, I am in His hands as well and if I can’t even save myself, what makes me think that I can save anyone else! Time to dust off my dreams and make them come true. Time to find ME again:)

Yoli Fae

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ImageI was so moved by this picture when my mother shared it with me on Facebook. She took one look at it and instantly thought of me. I had spoken with my mom earlier that day about how I wanted to stop allowing my thought life to control my physical outcomes. I’ve spent most of my life entertaining self destructing thoughts and inevitably those thoughts had convinced me that I would fail at everything I’d ever try in my life. THAT’S HOW POWERFUL OUR THOUGHTS CAN BE! I have a God given talent as an artist but was always afraid to share my work with others in fear of rejection. I always had an issue with how I looked because I am so tall and lanky and because of a scalp condition, always had short hair. Needles to say I never thought I was pretty. Everything I started, I stopped before I could finish in fear of what would be expected of me. It took me five years between junior college and private school to complete my Associate of Science degree in computer technology. Afraid of failing, I never used that degree once I completed it. I was once approached about a modeling career. I simply responded, “I’m too shy.” I WAS AFRAID OF SUCCESS!

But a change came in my late 30’s when I experienced a new found faith in God. Over the last ten years I’ve fought my thoughts with what the Word of God said about me; “I am fearfully and wonderfully made” – Psalms 139:14, “I can do ALL things through Christ who strengthens me” – Philippians 4:13, and my favorite, “For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” – Jeremiah 29:11. These words have helped me these last ten years to let go of some heavy baggage that was slowing me down and making me tired both emotionally and physically. My baggage included FEAR, HURT, GUILT and LOW SELF-ESTEEM. Before I found my faith in God’s Word, these burdens plagued my 20’s and half of my 30’s. That’s a long time to live in fear!!!

Today, I am not saying that I don’t still feel fear, but I no longer cower under it’s gripping hold. I face it head on! I’d rather do things afraid than always wonder what could have been. Funny thing too, every time I step out ‘on the water’ I realize that the real fear was all in my head and I’d say to myself, “What was I so afraid of? This isn’t bad at all?” Sometimes I fail and sometimes I succeed. The difference between my 40’s and my 20’s and 30’s is that in my 40’s I at least TRIED. Now, I’m proud to say that as 2013 draws to a close, I have completed my Bachelor of Arts degree in Business Administration, I have an online art gallery showcasing all of my paintings, and I sold my first painting two months ago!

Whatever your faith or belief, I encourage you to quiet those negative thoughts clouding your mind. Don’t be embarrassed to talk to someone you trust; a pastor, encouraging friend or family member, or even a psychiatrist. There’s nothing to be ashamed of! this is YOUR LIFE we’re talking about! When you do this, the weight of all that baggage that has held you down will feel lighter. Why? Because you will look down one day and see that you’ve dropped every burden you carried, to the ground! The key to a happier 2014 my friends is that you DO SOMETHING. Put this plan into action to make a positive change in your life. I haven’t even personally met you and I can honestly tell you that you are worth it!!! So let’s drop that baggage and experience a wonderful 2014!!!

with love,

Yoli Fae

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I had the best time this past weekend at the 7Th Annual Women of Purpose Conference in Chino! It refreshed me and reminded me that although it seems at times that my dreams and goals are so far away from my touch or may even appear TOO BIG or unrealistic, the FACT that I choose to dream and set goals means that I’m living my life ON PURPOSE instead of just letting my life go by, day in and day out. So, listen up friends (Yes, YOU I consider a friend), don’t give up on your dreams just because they may seem so far away. Pray on it, form a plan and then implement that plan. NEVER, EVER, EVER allow fear to keep you from living your life on purpose and making your dreams come true!!! purpose2Oh, and here is a BIGGIE; connect with people who encourage and uplift you. They don’t have to share your dreams. They just need to love you anyway and allow you to dream. Many times, no one but YOU will understand the road you have chosen to take. Still, it’s those select few who will walk that road with you. Embrace their friendship, because it is rare, and if this world has proven anything, it has proven that those things that are rare are valuable and yes, even PRICELESS!

God Bless,

Yoli

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